A Coyote Day of Learning

Personal Sharings

Journaling this morning, I pulled a Coyote Medicine Card from Jamie Sam's book (Medicine Cards). Having followed this routine for years, I know that Coyote will bring me it's erratic and, at times, disturbing energy, yet will also give me a good laugh and cause me to look more deeply at all that I do.

Guess what I learned today: I learned about the Foolishness of Fear. What a rare gift. "What fears?" you say. Well let's start with the "Fear of Loneliness." But on second thought, I realized I'm never alone. To be truthful, there aren't always people around, but then, that can be good, too, depending upon who "the people" are. Today brought a dog, the Idea Angels, a U-Haul Storage provider and my apartment's wonderful office helper. I was blessed today.

Then there is the Fear of Scarcity. Egad, and in this time of depression era-remindings of layoffs, low interest rates, high prices and "out of business" signs, the energy of our environment is polluted with Scarcity Fear. Yet, here I am surrounded by abundance for the grass is growing and smiles still show on the lips of the people I do business with. Seems like more folks I come in contact with these days are helpful. And there was feedback about a proposal I wrote that reflected the very message I wanted to communicate. What wonderful, abundant gifts.

Let's not leave out the Fear of Not Being Good Enough . . . to be chosen, to win the prize, or get recognition, when actually I learned to like myself for who I am--perfect for Me. I don't have interest any more in being judged, critiqued, or awarded from outside myself. I have learned to like what I do or redo it until I do like it--whether it's the dishes, writing a story, or sharing a hug. I realized today that I am good enough for me.

What a statement by one who spent most of my life fearing judgments and criticism. It took the discovery that, if I stop criticizing others or judging anyone or anything else, my own fears of these things vaporize. Free of contrasting winners to losers, I focus on what I like and let the rest go to be shared with those who can like it. For are we not all different in what we like? It's not the picture that is good, but whether we like it. Personally I do not care for Mozart, but that doesn't make Mozart's music bad. It means that his music and my ability to hear it are not synchronized for enjoyment. No more nor no less than that.

And so, Coyote was behind all these insights turning lemons into lemonade and fears into learning opportunities. What a guy, huh?

But there is one thing I know for sure today. I like writing my blog as I sense you in my mind, whoever you are. And I'd enjoy hearing back from.

Have a great good day!
Lynn